Wednesday, July 28, 2004


Lord of the Rings!

What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)

Monday, July 26, 2004

I am a WECF

 20 Questions to a Better Personality

Wackiness: 56/100
Rationality: 52/100
Constructiveness: 60/100
Leadership: 34/100

You are a WECF--Wacky Emotional Constructive Follower. This makes you a candle burning at both ends. You work until you drop, and you play until you can stand to work again. You have so much enthusiasm that you can find it hard to control on your own, and you appreciate the guidance that channels your energy and lets you be your best.In a relationship, you require lots of attention and support. You often over-contribute and end up feeling depleted and cheated. You may benefit from more time alone than you grant yourself.Your driving force is the emotional support of others--especially affection. You can run on empty for miles if you have positive energy behind you. Without it--as it occasionally must run dry--you are depressive, listless, and difficult to motivate.You need a lot of affection. Get it any way you can, but never at the cost of your self-respect or well-being.

Thursday, July 15, 2004

My life is rated R

My life is rated R.
What is your life rated?

This is a big surprise to me. I used to be pretty wild, but now am a nun. Not by choice, I would prefer to be a smoking, drinking, whore, but that's not happening. I don't know why I'm rated R, it must be because of my potty mouth.

Tuesday, July 13, 2004

Let's try something positive

I am going to try to only write about positive things right now.

I went to my Great Aunt's 90th birthday party on Sunday. She is amazing. She had 10 kids. Now she has 20 grandchildren and 11 great grandchildren. Wow, now I don't feel too bad about not having any kids. I hardly ever get to see her. The last time was probably her 80th party. So I walk into the party, late of course, all by myself, and my Aunt is sitting right by the door taking pictures and she sees me and waves me over remembering who I am. Now I know that my looks haven't really changed in the past 14 years, but I think it's amazing that she would remember me at 90 with about 70 people at the party already. So it was a very nice party. My mom drove up with my 2 aunts [one flew in from Florida for this] and my Uncle Bud. [Doesn't everyone have an Uncle Bud?] My other uncle and his wife had driven up the day before for a "mini-break". We all sat together and had a good time. My mom's cousins are all very nice and would stop by the table to say hello. I really didn't know anyone else, but it was nice to sit with my mom. She even remembered to bring the pants that I forgot at her house a few weeks ago. Then we all left. And I drove home. Which was fine until I got stuck trying to get back into the city. Traffic sucked. I still haven't figured out what the problem was. I finally made it home and even got a legal parking spot.

The ear doctor couldn't find anything wrong, again. So no more tests for now. I going to chalk the symptoms up to allergies and hope that they go away. If not, it's a MRI for me. The only disturbing thing was some of the follow up questions he asked I was answering yes. I have had headaches. I have has problems dropping things. I sometimes am clumsy. I do still get off balance. I think it all adds up to TUMOR!

Other good things:
*my house is pretty clean
*my cable is back on
*I got rid of a huge stack of newspapers last night. Only 1 more to go.
*my air conditioner is working
*my car is running fine and its ac is working
*it's supposed to get cooler tomorrow
*my plants survived re-potting
*Big Brother & Amazing Race are on tonight

OK that's enough good things for now, I don't want to get carried away!

Friday, July 09, 2004

Do you ever have one of those days?

Gaaah! Nothing is going well today.

I've been feeling lonely lately, so I have been toying with the idea of joining e-harmony. I have done the personality profile. I was surprised that it turned out to be spot on and not always in a good way. My mother agreed, no surprise there. So yesterday instead of doing the piles of work on my desk, I tried to join for 3 months to see what happens. Then I couldn't get my debit card to work. Wrong address blah, blah, blahcakes, never the less, I tried a bunch of times and it never went through. I tried again today, same thing. I called my bank to make sure my paycheck was deposited and found out that I have only $41 available! Jigga what? Yup, my deposit was there, but not available? Quick call to the bank, What the hell? Well, it turns out that 9 times when I tried to pay the membership fee, $99.95 was put on hold against my account. The charge never went through, but the hold for the money is there. AND nothing can be done about it! It will go away on its own - but not until Tuesday. So I have no money.

My head is killing me. I think it is a tumor. Or maybe just allergies?

My cable is out, still. The guy is finally coming tomorrow morning, but probably not until the last possible moment. That means I will miss the Farmers Market. Not that I'm pessimistic or anything.

I have a huge zit on my face.

I'm not sleeping again. The entire reason I am on the anti-depressants is so I can sleep. I have huge black circles under my eyes. I am either maniacally happy or cranky and bitchy as hell. The extremes are making me nuts. They aren't doing much for my co-workers either.

I hate most of my job and my co-workers. But this is nothing new.

I'm so jealous of my cousin. I went to his new loft last night, it is so beautiful. Huge windows, lots of space, 2 balconies, and a beautiful kitchen with an island and tons of cabinets. He has a great job, he gets to travel around the world, his year end bonus was a lump sum that was more than I make all year. I don't begrudge him any of this, he works hard and has worked hard to get where he is, but that's what I want, but I want it given to me.

I know that there are many, many people in the world who have real problems and that I am very lucky to have a job and a house and doctor's care, but at this moment everything sucks. And since I don't have anyone I want to talk to about this, I am ranting to my blog.

Does any one know of a rich person [man or woman, it doesn't matter to me] that wants someone to cuckhold. I wouldn't require much, a nice place to live, enough money so I don't have to work, and occasional entertainment. I am willing to be madeover.

The question of the day is --- If you realize that you are going completely insane, does it make it better that you recognize the instability or does it make it worse that you are conscious of your craziness?

Wednesday, July 07, 2004

Summer has started!

My summer has officially started. The first Big Brother aired last night and now the live feeds are up and running.

I love watching the hampsters! I do feel a little squicky, although very infrequently. They just seem to cast the most idiotic people. Either they are too self-aware or not self-aware at all and I just sit and watch. And watch, and watch and mock. I also lurk at Hampster Time and read all the wonderful live feed recaps. Here is where I have made all my imaginary internet friends, they're friends for me, but they don't know I exist.

At the first food competition, I think it was Lisa, was given the choice - $10,000 dollars in exchange for everyone going on PB&J for a week. This is a very easy choice - do not choose the money. This just makes everyone hate you! They are going to vote you out very soon for this, maybe not the first eviction, but soon! Julie said if the first hampster turned down the offer, the next hampster would be given the same choice. See, if you turn down the money and someone else takes it, you will look even better and they will have more hate than you do now. Have these idiots ever watched the show? It actually makes for more interesting live feeds when everyone is cranky from hunger. There will be more interpersonal confrontations. Good stuff.

The even better thing that happened last night - Amazing Race is back! This is my favorite reality show of all time. I have watched this show from the very first episode. The recaps Miss Alli writes on Television Without Pity make the show even better. This year has some interesting couples. I won't get too attached to anyone the first couple of weeks. I have to wait until some get weeded out before I can get a handle on the personalities. I am starting to reserve some early hate for Charla and Marla. From the initial interviews, I picked the twins as my early choice to win, but then I watched them race. They made a couple of HUGE mistakes the first leg, but were able to check in next to last. They won't last long if they don't get it together fast.

I am really trying to limit my show adding. I refuse to get sucked into any new "summer" shows. This means no Summerland or North Shore. I hear I'm not missing much.

My problem is that I have become sucked into the telenovela on Telemundo - Prisionera. It is a soap opera in Spanish, but closed captioned in English. I'm addicted. It's on Monday through Friday at 6:57 to 8:04 p.m. The main problem is that I can't just have it on in the background and just look up every once in a while. I have to sit down and read the captions. I have over 5 years of high school and college Spanish, but I can't keep up. Some times they are talking so fast, I don't even recognize the sounds they are making as even words. It should be over soon. They seem to run about 6 months and then it's over. But then a new one starts. I have been seeing the commercials for the next one starting - Gitanas. I translated a web site - google is the best - Gypsies. I will have to restrain myself from adding it to my watching list.

Tuesday, July 06, 2004

Weekend Baking

So my mother, through various circumstances, ended up with an industrial sized can of mandarin oranges. So when I was there last weekend, I ended up dividing up the oranges. I was lucky that my mom sent me home with a little less than half of an Industrial Sized can of mandarin oranges. I haven't eaten mandarin oranges since I was a kid and I don't normally buy or use them. So I had 2 bottles of oranges in my refrigerator and no idea what to do with them.

Thank God for the internet.

So after searching around for a while, I found a few of what I hoped were decent recipies and started baking this weekend. I picked 2 cake recipies, one was really easy and included packaged cake mix and one was from scratch. I picked these mostly because I already had most of the ingredients. I ended up buying more than I originally thought. (So now I have leftover coconut I have to figure out how to use.)

They turned out fine. They both taste good, very different from each other. Now after eating both, [the first one is very light with a cool whip and pineapple "frosting" and the second is dark and sugary with a walnut and coconut "topping" ]but neither one have very much "orange" taste to them. The first because of the pineapple in the cool whip and the second just doesn't. I'm not sure if it was the recipies I picked or the crappy quality of the industrial can of mandarin oranges. It just seemed like a wasted effort to make these orange desserts and then they don't taste of orange at all.

Well, at least it was something different.

When did I become a follower?

What have I gotten myself into?

I read quite a few blogs. I really enjoy reading them, it's like I have a whole bunch of friends that I don't see very often, but still keep in touch with. I worry about them when they don't post. But they don't know who I am. I am a lurker. Yup, I don't really have much to say. And I hate to write. Always have. I am too self-critical. I write nothing like I talk.

So what am I doing creating a blog? I don't know? All the cool kids have one. "Daddy, I want a blog too."

Well, I'll see how this goes. I'll probably spend most of the time either bitching about work or babbling about all the tv I watch.